Last night I saw an amzing movie entitled "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind". During this ungodly hour of the morning, I came upon a realization that I think the movie tried to portray. Or at least one variation of one of the ideas meant to be sent across. Forgeting things solves nothing. It's best to role with things, live in the moment, and want to do what you want to do and be with who you want to be with.

But this brought me to another thought. Why do we care whether or not we die? Don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to sound depressed or anything; it's just the opposite. I'm just wondering why we limit our daily activities with thoughts of doubt or possible embarassment. For instance, Last summer was the first time I ever rode a eal roller coaster. I did ride some before that, but let's be honest. No one would call "The Magical Unicorn" a real roller coaster. To quote my friends that I made ride it with me, "It's a pansy ride." Well, I was a pansy. But now, I have ridden all of the roller coasters in Busch Gardens and would happily do it again.

Now, this whole point isn't just about doing risky things that could kill you. It's more about doing what you want while you still can. We all are going to have to work to get money, but we shouldn't be focused on just that. Is it money that makes you happy? Or is it the people you spend your time with? Yes, we all will eventually have to join the American work force. Nevertheless, we don't have to be zombies to our job. We don't have to work overtime without extra pay just to make the higher ups happy. We don't have to push ourselves to the point of exhaustion just for a few nikels and dimes, so to speak. What's worth more: money itself or memories shared with friends?

Think about it this way. Do what you want without hurting someone ('Cause let's face it, that's never really, truly fun). Who cares if you look like a total idiot? Someone you're never going to see again? Besides, an idiot is just a mental projection of what society thinks is generally wrong. And if your friends tell you to stop embarassing yourself and to just calm down, then they don't like the real you now do they?

I guess what I"m trying to say is, how do you want to look back at your life twenty, fifty, seventy years from now? Do you want to say, "I shoulda...". Or would you rather think, "I wouldn't change a thing." It's basically staying innocent like a child and trying everything you want to as much as possible. But instead, social rules tell us to behave and be quiet. Why? I don't mean to take things to extremes or anything. Like, don't harass someone to go out with you or cause a panic in a crowd (although yelling "Fire!" is sometimes fun (don't do it)). Because if you think about it, later on you might say, "I shoulda...". I'm just saying, don't worry so much, relax, and have fun. Ride a few roller coasters. Date a little (or a lot). Do things while you can. "You only live once."